Day 8 thru 12 8 think....

So in theory this is the end of week 3 or 4 but not really. I started hitting the pool again 4 weeks ago today. But the rest really didn't fall into place until about 2 and a half weeks ago. The good news is that I can already feel the changes. I'm not sure if they are visible to others yet but I can certainly tell. I think I might be lucky in that as this process takes place, my body seems to want better food anyway AND I have always been able to build muscle easier than most women. I've just never really cared about it that much. I just like the way I feel when I'm fit. It was never about how much muscle I had or what it looked like. I'm not ready to check the scale again but at least I'm not feeling like this is a worthless process.
My left hip about 3 months ago had gotten so painful I considered thr hospital and surgery. But I also didn't want to be stuck at home after surgery and have all the extra weight on me and just end up with more and feel horrible. My hip pain has decreased about 85 to 90 percent! And in such a short amount of time! I'm hoping in another few weeks it will be completely gone.
The shitty part of this whole thing is the heat. Its warm and humid every single day and no waves. Unless I want to drive to santa cruz or down the coast every day then I don't get to surf. Its been 2 weeks since I was in the water last. Its depressing me. Not to mention that with all the sweat from the gym and yoga I don't ever feel like my body cools down enough. It sucks. I miss the cold ocean and waves so much. I'm gonna see about exploring santa cruz soon and making a trip down the coast before summer is over. I gotta keep doing what I'm doing though until the surf is back. Much more fun to catch waves than lift weights but I don't mind it so much when I can do both.
As for eating...I definitely don't process food very well after 5pm. I tried 6pm but it wasn't early enough. My metabolism is just too slow by then. I seem to do fine as long as I'm done eating by 530pm. I can have a few crackers and a lollipop but nothing more after that time. Then my nighttime meds work better too when I have an empty stomache.
I've been going to bikram yoga 3 or 4 days a week and to the gym 4 or 5 days a week plus surfing when I can. I try to take 1 rest day and I do a double workout 2x per week right now. I can't seem to do yoga after the gym though. It about killed me...not to mention the humidity has been horrible. I do much better when I do yoga first and then either the gym or surf after. Not sure why.
Gonna keep pushing. Hoping in 2 more weeks that the results are more visible. Oh! And the one thing I hate.....my body always looses weight through my middle last. Wtf. I gain it evenly over my whole body but as I lose it it's always my arms then legs then middle. Not fair. Especially with all the ab work I do.

Day 5

Day 5. Its actually been more like 3 or 4 weeks. Maybe even 5 weeks. I started going to yoga 3 or 4 days a week that long ago. I thought for sure I would see results pretty quickly.  But my body kept compensating and justifying for how much I was working out. I work out hard. Always have. So I ate that way too. Now granted, you can be short and weigh 200 pounds and still have very little body fat. But I wouldn't be very agile or flexible at that weight. Again..the big problem is that I'm not hungry but my brain wants me to eat and eat sugar to get the craving to stop even though what it does is make it happen more often.
I did pretty good last night. I had a couple of crackers (3) and a nectarine and a few pretzel chips. I was hoping to get some money yesterday so I can try my 2 lollipops a day thing and see if it works/helps but I guess I'll have to hope it comes today instead.
I worked out hard at the gym for an hour and swam for 45min. I'm starting to feel the difference and I'm sleeping better I think. My hip is still killing me though. I'm also hoping to cut back down the amount of melatonin I take as well as amitriptyline. The melatonin bothers my kidneys and I used to be fine on less amitriptyline as far as sleep went.
The goal is not necessarily a 6 pack but at least some definition in my abs. I have always been able to build muscle and define it pretty easily. I'm hoping my body stays that way. The big thing is getting the weight off of my back and hip so it stops hurting so bad and I can go back to sleeping on my side. Currently,  if I don't sleep on my stomache I wake up in horrible severe pain in my hip, leg and back. If I don't take meds for it its bad enough where most people would go to the hospital for it. I just take a pill and try to calm myself til it starts working. Even just plain Tylenol works sometimes but not well enough for me to go back to sleep until 2 hours later. Sucks.
Day 6 here we go!

Day 2, 3 and 4. Already behind! Day 100+

Well...starting again. I put on 20 pounds over the last year and a half since my car accident. Partly because I haven't had a car so it was hard to get places like the gym and to surf. But also because it was extremely depressing and lastly because I stopped taking diet pills.
I  determined to get back to my fighting weight (140 pounds) without help. Every time I've lost the weight in the last 15 years it was with help. Now I gotta figure out how to do it on my own. Since money has been tight with no vehicle it meant that I couldn't afford my allergy meds or diet pills. Yes it's a good thing to be off of both but the bad thing is that I tend to eat when I'm bored.  Lollipops seem to help especially in the afternoon but it would be nice not to need those either. Yes they are full of sugar but they only have 80 calories and last me an hour and curbs my craving to eat other stuff.
The other piece is that I'm not hungry when I eat a lot of the time. It takes a lot of self control to stop myself. Especially after 5pm when I know metabolism is at its slowest. I'm usually home and tired and my body wants a pick me up so it goes for junk and sugar. This is when the lollipops help the most. Gonna try to just have 2 a day from 5pm on for 30 days and then try to cut them out from there.
Its crazy how sugar can take over your life. I also think I need more fiber to help with the sugar. I heard that the sugar craving may be in part due to lack of fiber and since my meds make constipation a problem it may be making it even worse than that. Gonna try bran muffins and see if that helps too.
Okay. Here we go. Day 3. Keep up the good work!
Oh...I should mention how hard I workout. Surfing, yoga, swimming, weight room. I workout intensely for about 2 hours a day or more sometimes. I am not sitting on my ass doing nothing. I am currently the fattest person at yoga and it Pisses me off. You would never know that I've been there for 7 and a half years. It looks like I've been there 7 days!