Been awhile

Well it's been a few weeks since I posted. I'm starting to see some differences and fix some things too. I just wish the place I work the hardest....on my core strength...would show first and not last. But I always lose it in my arms first, then legs, then neck and chest, then abs. So my pants still fit around the waist the same but are a lot looser in the legs.
I got my juice plus complete vanilla 2 weeks ago. I'm using that as meal replacement at dinner most days. Its not perfect but its better. I've stopped buying most dinner foods because I was overeating at lunch to compensate and that doesn't help much. Yes, my body is metabolizing it better and faster during that time but it's still the same number of calories. It was making me even more tired in the afternoon too because I was so full.
On Saturday after yoga I layer in the sun with Carol for awhile. When I went to get up the right side of my low back was in so much pain I almost fell over and blacked out. I'm pretty sure it's either a pinch or muscle issue. But I didn't need either!!! My back is so bad as it is thst this just made it so much worse! Its now tuesday and I'm not sure its any better. I told my doctor that if it wasn't better by Thursday that I would make an appointment. I are the mistake of sleeping on my side for 30min this morning. Thought I was going to die when  I tried to get up. Holy shit it hurt to even flinch. Wtf. I switched from Tylenol to aleve cuz it works better but its hard on my stomache and kidneys so I don't lime taking a lot of it.
Fiber issue was better but then had to double up on my meds when the back thing happened so now I'm backed up again. Feeling fat and yucky. No surf, can't go to yoga or the gym, and I'm in severe pain. Fun fun. Been resting, icing, heat and stretching too but only getting very minor help from that. I hope the rest of the week gets better.

Day 2, 3 and 4. Already behind! Day 100+

Well...starting again. I put on 20 pounds over the last year and a half since my car accident. Partly because I haven't had a car so it was hard to get places like the gym and to surf. But also because it was extremely depressing and lastly because I stopped taking diet pills.
I  determined to get back to my fighting weight (140 pounds) without help. Every time I've lost the weight in the last 15 years it was with help. Now I gotta figure out how to do it on my own. Since money has been tight with no vehicle it meant that I couldn't afford my allergy meds or diet pills. Yes it's a good thing to be off of both but the bad thing is that I tend to eat when I'm bored.  Lollipops seem to help especially in the afternoon but it would be nice not to need those either. Yes they are full of sugar but they only have 80 calories and last me an hour and curbs my craving to eat other stuff.
The other piece is that I'm not hungry when I eat a lot of the time. It takes a lot of self control to stop myself. Especially after 5pm when I know metabolism is at its slowest. I'm usually home and tired and my body wants a pick me up so it goes for junk and sugar. This is when the lollipops help the most. Gonna try to just have 2 a day from 5pm on for 30 days and then try to cut them out from there.
Its crazy how sugar can take over your life. I also think I need more fiber to help with the sugar. I heard that the sugar craving may be in part due to lack of fiber and since my meds make constipation a problem it may be making it even worse than that. Gonna try bran muffins and see if that helps too.
Okay. Here we go. Day 3. Keep up the good work!
Oh...I should mention how hard I workout. Surfing, yoga, swimming, weight room. I workout intensely for about 2 hours a day or more sometimes. I am not sitting on my ass doing nothing. I am currently the fattest person at yoga and it Pisses me off. You would never know that I've been there for 7 and a half years. It looks like I've been there 7 days!

Starting over.....again

Well....here I am again. Posting another blog that I probably won't follow through with. Guess I'll start with how much things have changed.
Going on my 3rd month of being kicked out of my own home. Big fight in december and carols solution was to have me go back and forth between my moms and home when the kids aren't there. Made things harder not easier. No one else sacrificed anything but me.
Second. Finally got permission to start my own team! Yay! Except I have no idea how long it will take nor how to do it. But I'm gonna make it work somehow.
Third. I owe a bunch of bills and no money. Truck sucked up 2500 thus far which was the last of my settlement money. After next week I gotta hope that unemployment kicks in.
4th thing. I'm heavy and sick and in pain. I put on prob 25 or more pounds and it needs to come off now! Ive never been able to without diet pills. About a year and a half ago I finally got off diet pills and zyrtec d which has a stimulant in it. I have been on both for about 10 years. Same thing happened the last time I went off of them.
Its not that I'm hungry. Some of it I think is that with the meds I'm on my body is craving something to clean out my system. Sugar seems to be the thing it wants most. Even though I don't eat processed sugar that's what it wants. I'm giving myself til the end of may to take it off but I need to track what I eat. Its still calories in and out but I need to go back to way Way less after 5pm. Its the only thing that has worked before. Not sure how my body will react without the stimulants to help it along. But its gotta change. For now, this blog will be my tracking system. I'm not willing to weigh myself yet but I know that in 2 weeks I mustve put on at least 5 more pounds. My shorts BARELY fit now. Not happy.

Breakfast was 1 pop tart and 2 handfuls of sweet and salty trail mix and 5 small size peanut butter cups. The single bite ones not the regular. See what I mean?

Lunch will be 1/2 container mac and cheese and an apple.

Dinner is orange chicken and either green beans or peas...not sure how to do it early tho cuz practice goes til 530 or 545 and I don't get home until after 7pm. Guess I will figure it out.

Movie Fed Up

Was warching Katie Couric this morning who is a part of the film Fed Up which comes out in theaters today. Its about the sugar epidemic in this country and how it is killing us. People would and will be shocked at how bad of a problem this is. But will people watch it? Will you pay 10$ to go to the movies to see this? Im guessing that most people won't or at least not the people who really need this kind of information.  When it is vastly cheaper to buy food thats bad for you, parents especially, dont think that it matters what you buy or what brand but as long as theres ENOUGH food on the table thats all that matters. Its insane. A lot more people have watched Supersize Me and Food Inc now that its on Netflix and Amazon Prime and we have had longer to digest how screwed up the corn industry and fast food industry are. But now we are talking about nearly THE ENTIRE FOOD INDUSTRY in America. Its all sugared up, all of it. One bowl of cereal is equal to 2 donuts! If youre not gonna see the movie, do the research. Avoid added sugar, read labels. The next generation is the first that is not slated to live longer than we are, and we are the only ones that can help to change that.