Dammit

Went to the doctor for my ruptured eardrum yesterday. 3 weekz after it happened I finally had to go to the walk in clinic and take a day off to do it. Anyway....they weigh u first thing. I haven't lost a single pound in 3 months. I'm pissed. I have worked so hard. Even Michele, who goes to the gym with me was shocked. My body has changed but all the weight is still there.
25 pounds to go dammit. I work my ass off. Guess I gotta try adjusting the diet part again and see what happens. I need to track my food again too which is hard with the back and forth between houses. What a pain. I mentioned it to my doctor while I was there and he said we should run a thyroid test and see if thats why. I am not happy. I've worked so frickin hard for 3 months and nothing.

Been awhile

Well it's been a few weeks since I posted. I'm starting to see some differences and fix some things too. I just wish the place I work the hardest....on my core strength...would show first and not last. But I always lose it in my arms first, then legs, then neck and chest, then abs. So my pants still fit around the waist the same but are a lot looser in the legs.
I got my juice plus complete vanilla 2 weeks ago. I'm using that as meal replacement at dinner most days. Its not perfect but its better. I've stopped buying most dinner foods because I was overeating at lunch to compensate and that doesn't help much. Yes, my body is metabolizing it better and faster during that time but it's still the same number of calories. It was making me even more tired in the afternoon too because I was so full.
On Saturday after yoga I layer in the sun with Carol for awhile. When I went to get up the right side of my low back was in so much pain I almost fell over and blacked out. I'm pretty sure it's either a pinch or muscle issue. But I didn't need either!!! My back is so bad as it is thst this just made it so much worse! Its now tuesday and I'm not sure its any better. I told my doctor that if it wasn't better by Thursday that I would make an appointment. I are the mistake of sleeping on my side for 30min this morning. Thought I was going to die when  I tried to get up. Holy shit it hurt to even flinch. Wtf. I switched from Tylenol to aleve cuz it works better but its hard on my stomache and kidneys so I don't lime taking a lot of it.
Fiber issue was better but then had to double up on my meds when the back thing happened so now I'm backed up again. Feeling fat and yucky. No surf, can't go to yoga or the gym, and I'm in severe pain. Fun fun. Been resting, icing, heat and stretching too but only getting very minor help from that. I hope the rest of the week gets better.

Wtf. I don't get it.

K. So I picked up some juice plus complete packets yesterday from a friend. The plan is to do meal replacement at dinner time with them 3x a week. I still can't figure out why I keep eating so much late when I'm not hungry. Then I just feel sick, fat and bloated. Since juice plus complete has 8g of fiber I'm hoping it will help curb it and keep me regular too. Plus 18g of protein and then mix w whole milk some sugar and a little more vanilla and ice if I want it cold. I think if I make it like a Frappuccino then I will drink it slower and it will fill me up faster. I had half a packet AFTER dinner for some stupid reason last night. Made me sick I was so full. But I got brain freeze several times so I drank it slow. Then I gotta get back on iron supplement too. I think its hurting me to not be on it. Its part of perimenopause for boobs to be sore. But its been 5 days!! I already get plenty of vitamin D and B. Iron is the one I stopped taking recently because i keep forgetting to pack it in the back and forth. I start water polo on August 10th. I have so much to do between now and then!! 10 pounds needs to come off before that!!

Some good and bad changes

Well I've pooped 4 mornings in a row!! I know! Gross right?! Well it used to be like that every day. Now I'm lucky if its 2x a week. Not good when ur trying to lose weight. I'm hoping it will start curbing the late food cravings cuz its killing me. I don't even feel like I eat that much but I'm still getting fatter even though I'm killing myself as far as working out goes. Yesterday I went to yoga I  the morning. I was so bloated and my leg hurt so bad it was one of the worst sessions I have had in years. Couldn't balance to save my life either. Then I went to the gym for about 45 to 60 minutes cuz I didnt feel like I got to work out my core at yoga cuz I felt so bad. Then I surfed boneyard with rick for about an hour in the late afternoon. So you figure like 3 hours or more I worked out yesterday. And it's been like that so much lately. Again....I don't need the food late. I'm not hungry. Its like my body says to do it because something is off. Not sure if its fiber or iron or what but its killing me. Doesnt matter how strong I am if I'm fat. And I hate it. I knew there would be struggles but this is ridiculous. Now looking at replacing half my dinner with a juice plus protein shake just to help with vitamins and fiber late in the day since I struggle the most then. We will see if that helps. I haven't had a down day for 2 weeks. I should be so ripped for me at this point. Its been 2 months and I can tell how much stronger I am and I can see some of it. But its under all this flab so makes no difference. Wtf.

Small victories

A small victory....I pooped again this morning! Haha gross I know. Seems to go in waves. My system still needs more fiber and I know that's the big problem right now. Its hard to get fresh greens in me with the back and forth schedule. They just don't travel well. I'm probably going to start on juice plus complete daily as a workout recovery. It has fiber in it so hoping that will help. Gonna pick some up tomorrow. I think its gonna cost 40 a month. We will see how long I can afford it. Otherwise the fiber gummy ez at costco are 20 or 25 bucks for a big thing of 2 that have 5 grams of fiber. I should be getting 30 a day.
Yesterday was crazy. I waited 2 hours at boneyard for rick to show up after he said 45min. It was kinda sloppy but still fun. I had a lady from KION interview me about the shark attack on mick fanning. That was kinda cool. They ended up using an interview from Peter mel instead but since he was there and on the ski that rescued him I think that's a much better use of airtime than me.
Then when I walked redley at 8pm when it cooled off some....we got to via paraiso and 2 brown standard poodles came running up. No owners no leashes and no tags!!! I didn't know what to do cuz if they had tags I couldve called the owner. They wanted to play with redley! I thought someone in the park owned them cuz I thought I heard them get called cuz then they ran off. But when I went to go go down the hill the came running to us again! A couple on that side came out and tried to help but it turns out they didn't run from me because of redley.  They ran from the husband. I was just gonna keep walking but then I realized if I left they would be outside in the dark and anything could happen at that point. I asked the husband where he past saw them and went that way and started listening for barking. Sure enough I found them a few blocks later. Luckily a lady got them and her husband went to get leashes. I stayed put cuz they weren't afraid of redley and he seemed to calm them down. They had a yard to keep them in and we're gonna call PD for help. They were both unfixed. A male and female. People don't seem to understand that unfixed dogs tend to roam. I would say 90% or more of all the loose ones I've come across were all unfixed!
Then when I got back to the high school (2 blocks from moms) a woman in an SUV pulls over to me (I thought she was gonna ask about the dogs for sure) and asked if I had seen a blonde girl walking a German Shepherd!  Which I hadnt. She just drove off after that. I have no idea how old the girl was or how long she had been missing. I guess she wasn't that worried or she wouldve told me more....or at least I would hope she would.
Crazy day.
Almost forgot. I was fine until after a light dinner but again...I think fiber is the issue. My body keeps wanting me to eat stuff that's going to get my system moving. Sugar seems to be its next option. Not sure why. I ate a bunch of trader joe cookie butter which has ginger in it. Not sure if that's why I seek to crave it but I do. Anyway...hoping to have that changed this week!

Moving right along

Well. Its hot as hell. Friday night/saturday morning we had the craziest thunder I can remember having! The porpoises dogs freaked out. Mom brought chloe in to me at 430 am cuz she was crying. Redley barked at it every time. It rained for about 2 hours early on and then stopped. Dan Diego got slammed with it though. By mid day it got very warm on saturday.
I surfed boneyard for 2 and a half hours and hung out for 30min or so. Me rick chenoa kayne garrett and 2 other guys were all out. It was fun again. Had a big breakfast but then missed lunch cuz I was in the water. Had burger and fries for dinner. Had a little bit of a hard time after dinner probably cuz I haven't pooped in like a week and I know its building up. Gotta get some fiber gummy ez asap. Also gonna start on juice plus complete again too I think. We will see. I'm noticing a difference in my body though so hoping that's a good sign. I definitely don't eat as much or as often when I get to exercise regularly.  Especially when I get to surf. Today will be 6 days in a row of surfing which might be the most days in a row since my car accident last april. Crazy to think about it that way. I'm starting to think cut back on the size of meals too. Like I found I don't need as much breakfast as what I'd was eating but I need more lunch and less dinner. I've known for a long time that m6 body does better when lunch is my big meal. Especially if I eat it around 1 or 2. Its late enough where I'm still kinda full for dinner so I don't eat as much. Oh! And as disturbing as it is, I finally pooped this morning. I can still tell there's more in there but it's as start!!

Much better but still one problem

Been doing really well the last few days. I finally got to surf!  Surfed boneyard the last 4 days in a row! Been super fun. Little grinding barrels of joy! Rick mustve gotten 25 barrels 2 days ago. It was nuts! I just laughed. Yesterday wasn't quite as good but still really fun. I've been doing double duty every day. I was in the weight room and swam wednesday and thursday and then surfed for an hour or so in the evening w Bryan and Rick. Then friday I went to the weight room and swam then went straight to boneyard and surfed for 2 hours! I was only at the gym for a little over an hour so surfing wasn't too much but I was still exhausted afterwards. But I slept like crap for some reason.
Yesterday,  saturday, I went to yoga at 8am. Then surf checked. Boneyard needed higher tide. Then went to asilomar and there was an older man who went full speed into a car that was stopped and pulled over on the wrong side of the road and in the bike lane. I stayed and made sure the ambulance and fire came. He didn't know where he was or what had happened. He went head first into the back window and smashed all the tail lights. I hope he will be okay. Good thing he had a helmet on. I think we take for granted how badly you can get injured on a bike. You can go 40 mph and wreck and all u have on is a helmet. Motorcycle riders usually have at least some protective gear on but not enough. Thats why my family won't let me have one. Anyway, I went back to surf boneyard at 12:30. Stayed out for about 2 and a half hours. Rick, Bryan, garrett, chenoa, kayne were all there. Bryan and garrett surfed uulies.  Chenoa went over there for awhile too. Kayne finally got to surf for the first time in a month. Kai and Wayne showed up right before we paddled out. Kayne stayed out for awhile with Kai so he wasn't by himself. It was nice to hang out with everyone again. Its been awhile.
So the one thing I'm struggling with as far as taking the weight off is pooping. I know I know...its gross and TMI, but.....its to a key part of health and weight loss. Even though I'm on a stimulant it's not working.  I'm considering taking fiber therapy. Right now I'm going once or twice a week which is very abnormal for me. Normal would be once or twice a day. Plus when I'm regular I lose weight faster. I can tell the difference in my body already. Its been 4 weeks. Hoping I can get regular and lose the rest!